Tiredness~~~

These days was extremely tired. When 'exam' the shadow fly over my mind, I am totally 'oh shit, times out ' Last minute person. No point to regret, just do or accept whatever its come. I am exhausted when pocket is out of money, everynight stay till midnight only sleep, premenstrual syndrome, stone above my head, exam pieces ..........I miss my secondary's life~~~Espeacially the exam~~~wahahha....no need resit...Why women must experience pms during menstruation? Why not guy? Why Why Why????? =,=''''''''''''''' I am just tired, not crazy. Don't thought I am insane, I am just list out the questions. HoHoHo

我是你最爱的丫头 ~~~

“倘若有一天我死了，你会再娶其它女人么？”我记得问这话是在我与君的结婚一周年纪念日上。那时，他正忙着与锅里的鲜鱼对战，根本无暇理睬我。
“啊？哦，也许会吧！这得等你真死了才能说。”“什么？”我佯怒，从他身后抱住他：“你就这么讨厌我啊？”
君笑，关上火转身抱我：“傻丫头，我答应过你不骗你。如果我说不娶可我后来娶了，不就骗了你么？”
我也笑，躲在他怀里，快乐得像只小鸟“好吧，准你娶她。不过，不许她碰我那些漂亮娃娃。”“为什么？”
“因为，那是你送我的爱的信物，死后啊，我要在那儿看着你！”“哇！好恐怖啊！”君大笑地抱紧我“傻孩子，你的命啊，长着呢！”
现在，我就活在这堆娃娃里，我想象不到短短十天，我便真的与君阴阳相隔。　　
我是死于车祸的。一切来的那么突然。那时，我正盘算着周末我们要去哪儿旅行，那车就飞速冲来了。其实，没什么很大的痛楚，清醒时，我看到人们七手八脚的把我抬上救护车，只觉得好笑，因为我知道那是多余的。意识到自己的死亡，我一点也不难过。我一向没什么朋友，只有君。现在仍可以陪着君，看着君就行了。管他是什么样的形态呢。想到这儿，我便大步走回家。
家门前，我犹豫了。我记得以前听说魂是可以越墙而入的。我试了试，居然成功了！这令我兴奋不已，又来回再试了几次。嘿，做魂也没什么不好的。起码钥匙省了！　　
进到屋内，我逛了一圈，君还没有回来。突然想起，这是上班时间。于是又在屋内不停的溜弯儿。欣赏我们的房子是我生前最爱做的事儿。当然，死后也不例外。虽然，这间屋子，我已再熟悉不过。因为，在这儿，我渡过了我一生中最幸福最快乐的375日。至今，我还记得结婚那天，君在家门前望着我的表情。他说：“丫头，以后这就是我们的家了！我们的！”是啊，我和君的。从那天起，我便不停装扮它，直至今天，我再也无法为它效力为止。　　
我看到屋内的粉红色窗帘，卡通的大地毯和那堆了大半个卧室的娃娃。突然想起君每每抚摸我头发轻声说：“你真是个孩子。”时，那无奈又怜爱的样子。是啊，能把家弄像个玩具店，我不是孩子又是什么呢？只可惜再也看不到群在说这话时的表情了。　　
我叹了口气，回到娃娃堆坐下。不知不觉中竟睡着了。醒来时，已是天黑。我感到了一丝寒气。使抱怨起君竟然忘了把我抱回暖烘烘的被窝。这才猛然想起，我已从君的生命中消失了，而且是很彻底的。我起身，开始绕着屋子找他，最后是在卫生间里找到我心爱的君的。　　
他趴在浴缸上，旁边摆着许多空酒瓶，地上被吐得乱七八糟，一股刺鼻的味儿飘散在空气中。我不悦地捏着鼻子，蹲下来看他。竟发现他脸上挂着泪痕。天！我的君会哭？！那个坚强无比的他竟然哭了！多不可思议啊！我试图拉起他，可手却穿越了他的身体！我试了一次又一次，在筋疲力尽后，我决定放弃。头一次，我知道自己是这么无能的。在我的君如此痉时，我连拉他一把的能力都没有。这样的妻子要来何用呢？　　
我轻轻吻了吻他的嘴唇，在他的身边坐下。除了这样陪他，我想不到还有什么其它的办法。　　
“丫头，不要走，不要……”我听见君在叫我。我知道他是说醉话了。我笑：“傻瓜，我这么爱你，怎会舍得离你而去呢？” 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　 　　　　　　　
一个月后，日子渐渐恢复正常。我的君仍旧准时准点的上下班，只是不再爱笑；而我，也依旧是那个快乐的小主妇，乖乖的呆在家陪我的娃娃们，只是君不曾发觉；我们还是那样过着属于我们两个人的日子，屋内的一切都没有改变过。直到有一天，玲的出现。　　
玲按门铃时，群正在书房里加班做他的计划书，我则在一旁傻呵呵的陪他。我想不出在夜里这个时候会有什么人来访？走到客厅，便看到性感的玲和呆呆的君。　　
这是我第一次见玲。她留着长长的卷发，穿着黑色的性感套装，化了很浓的妆。四周全是她身上散发出的香水味儿。我不禁低头看了看自己身上的娃娃裙和兔兔拖鞋。和她比，我是名符其实的孩子。　
　“我搬来了。”听到玲这样说，我才注意到她身边的行李袋。搬来？住哪儿？我和君的家么？我奇怪的望着她。　
　“别胡闹，你给我回去声”君似乎在发火。我头一次看到君发火的样子，很凶。我害怕。　
　“凭什么？你老婆都死了，难道我们现在不应该正大光明了吗？”
玲笑得很灿烂，可我觉得很冷 “瞧！你老婆死得多好啊。多会挑时间啊。连离婚都省得你和她说了……”“啪！”我看见君打了玲一巴掌。我惊呆了！君怎么会打人呢？他平时连骂一声都不曾有过的。如此温柔的君竟然会打人？他还有多少是我不曾知道的？？　
　“哼！现在打我？！以前在我床上对我甜言蜜语的日子，你忘记了是吧！你可别忘了，你是答应过我和你老婆离婚娶我的！……”离婚？！君想和我离婚么？他不爱凶？他竟要娶玲？我怎么一点也不曾发觉？玲再说的话，我已一个字都听不进去。我跌跌撞撞的走回我的娃娃堆。抱着它们。我觉得鼻子酸酸的，一股热浪从眼里涌了出来。　　
原来，魂也会流泪啊！玲就这样搬进了我和君的家，像个女主人一样睡在我和君的床上，不同的只是君搬去了客厅。她换掉我的卡通地毯和粉红窗帘。拿走我衣橱里的娃娃裙和鞋架上的兔兔鞋。她把它们通通扔到垃圾箱里。　　
君什么也不说，只默默地把它们捡回来，洗干净，再放进我深爱的娃娃堆里。然后连续不断的对我说：“丫头，对不起，我对不起你啊！”我望着君，心疼的掉泪。可我不愿原谅他！我无法接受我和君的生活中，出现一个莫明其妙的玲。她像个女皇一样在我和君的屋子里指手划脚，把我一点点挤出去；把我曾精心装扮的小屋变成她的家。尤其让我无法忍受的是，君的欺骗。他为了玲欺骗我！他说过不会骗我的，连我死后的事儿都不愿意欺骗的君，为什么会在我还在人世时，就和玲在一块儿呢？一瞬间，我与君有过的幸福日子显得那么苍白无力。　
　“这堆垃圾给我扔了！”玲指着我的鼻尖对君说。我看了看四周，明白了，她指的是我的宝贝娃娃。这些都是君送我的。是我们每一次快乐的纪念。第一次约会，第一次做饭，第一次接吻……我们都异常珍惜。还说以后要留给孩子看，告诉他们爸爸妈妈有多么幸福，可如今……天！我看到了什么？君在收拾它们！他要扔掉它们么？他忘了我说过我活在娃娃堆里么？他真的不要我了？一点也再想念他的丫头？我拼命的摇头，却阻止不了他的动作。　　
君把娃娃收做一堆时，玲很满意地笑了：“快点，扔了它们，我们得忘了过去，开始新的生活了。”君看了看玲，并不理睬她。只很温柔的在每个娃娃的脸上都亲上一口，像以前亲吻我那样。“玲，你走吧！我求你了！离开我和丫头的家！我不会扔了它们，也不能扔了它们！我的丫头活在里面，她在看着我啊！”玲愤怒的望着君：“你说过，你爱我，你是我的！”“不是，不是！对不起，我骗了你，骗了丫头，更骗了我自己！”君失声痛哭“我只爱丫头，只爱她一个啊！任何人都代替不了她，可是，我明白的太晚了……”我奔上前，像以前一样抱住他的后背。泪水横飞，我不能不原谅他啊！不久，玲搬走了。像来时那样匆忙。连声再见都没和君说。我想她是伤心的，我看着她忧郁的背影想为她做些什么，可有心无力。我不恨她，只希望她以后一切都可以很好。就像我不恨君一样，我知道爱一旦深入骨髓，就不懂怎么会恨了。 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
玲走后，又恢复以前宁静而冷清的日子。君把我们的屋子恢复原样。没事儿时便捧着我的照片发呆。要不就一夜接一夜的不停工作。他把自己封闭起来。看着他日渐清瘦的脸庞，我心里说不出是什么滋味儿。欣便是在那时候闯入了君的生活。欣与君的相识平淡无奇。那日，欣刚搬到隔壁的空屋，可保险丝断了，便来向君借。我知道君看到欣时愣住了，因为我也愣住了。欣与我长得出奇的像。只是眉宇间多了份成熟。我看到君抱紧欣叫她丫头时，欣莫名又尴尬的表情。忍不住大笑。我的君竟然也有此等愚笨的时候！从此，欣和君便开始了似有似无的交往。　　
欣是个很温柔的女人。与创造性幼稚的我是完全不同的。她常在我和君的小屋出入，为君收拾房子，做出可口的饭菜，但从不过夜。我就那么每天坐在娃娃堆里，看着她擦拭我的照片，打扫娃娃身上的灰尘，看她不厌其烦的听君讲我和他的故事……　　
我打了个很大的哈欠，我想我呆乏了，或许应该换个地方。 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　 　　　
君和欣的婚礼是那么自然。我甚至没有一丝嫉妒。婚后的欣像以前一样，她没改变房中任何一点小摆设，包括我那堆曾被玲称为垃圾的娃娃们。望着她每日奔波忙碌的样子，我觉得像是一幅温馨而美丽的画。突然间发现我已是那么多余了。可是，我不愿离开君。　　
欣怀孕了。这令君兴奋不已。初为人父的喜悦是无法言语的。他像当初娇惯我一般宠着欣，甚至有过之而无不及。　　
我想欣是幸福的。可我又该如何呢？这个的问题一直困惑着我，直到那日。　　
那天，君外出了。我看到欣站在娃娃堆前摸着肚子自言自语“宝宝，你会很幸福的，因为你有两个妈妈疼。”然后，她摸了摸娃娃的脸蛋：“丫头，你也很疼我们的宝宝的。对么？”我明白了，欣不是自言自语，而是在对我说。　　
我释然了。站起来，伸了个大懒腰。窗外明媚的阳光透过玻璃照在我的身上，暖洋洋的。我知道，宝宝只会有一个妈妈疼。便起身离开我心爱的娃娃们，我相信，很快会再见的。数月后，君与欣生下一漂亮的女儿，取名叫丫头如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?在此祝福全天下所以的有情人~都能夠忠誠眷屬~~

Braces's Life Started [Part I]

As my last few entry mentioned,I was going to put on braces.Today, FINALLY the braces is put on. At first was thinking, ' Si Tantan and si ah ji, bluff me.Told me after putting on the braces will suffer for about few days but now I didn't feel anything.' That time thinking, ' Wah,so lucky~~~Luckily not pain' BUT!!!!I WAS TOTALLY WRONG!!! After bathing, when I used towel to wipe my face ,Oh My Guan Yim Ma!!!My front teeth was like going to break!!!Pain till 'MASUK TULANG' sigh~~~Now just use my hand and apply some pressure on top of my lip, will pain till feel that oh no, my teeth is broken~~~=,=''''.........Who ask me so 'tam leng', go pay and to get torture and suffer? Another NO PAIN NO GAIN!!! In here, I roughly write what the doctor had done to my teeth in the last few appointment.

1st and 2nd time appointment: Was putting the seperator between my teeth to have a gap between my teeth and 2nd time was also taking impression for my upper part of mouth.

The 3rd time was 100% torturing. Need to add another action when biting and swallowing. The doctor put the steel on top of my mouth.And need to lock twice a day. So once I put my foods into mouth, it will stuck on top of it.And I have to either use my hand or tounge to 'korek' out and bite again. Depends to how was the situation. When eating infront of friends, I use my tongue to 'korek' out and swallow. The other way round when eating infront of family or alone ,WAHAHAHAHA.....I used my HAND!!! I know it was disgusting but what to do? As long as YOU are not IMAGING now then it is ok d.HAHAHA...Sorry for being so disgusting but I will NEVER AND EVER do it in front of friends or stranger. Sometimes, not sometimes. Was MOST of the time I just 'korek' out and bite, my food stuck op top again. KEK KHI AR!!! :@~~~Anyway, yesterday I just 'korek' out by using hand in public.LOL~~~cause if I didn't use hand instead of tounge, I was nearly to choke die. Because of the SMALL LITTLE PIECE of SEAWEED~~~The incident was I was eating sushi and the seaweed wraping around the rice. I bite bite bite and half of the seaweed stucked on top of my mouth and another half was 'hanging' at my esophgus.I use my tounge 'korek' but it still stuck and getting slightly began miserable so I just use my hand and 'korek' =,='''...If I didin't, maybe you guys will saw today's newspaper with title ' A girl died cause of SMALL LITTLE SEAWEED' wahahha........I am just crapping.LALALA~~~~

4th time appointment, before the day of today, I was extremely excited cause I thought I am going to release from torturing and suffering. But I was totally wrong AGAIN~~~*crying loudly* When the assistant putting on the braces for me, I asked her why never take out the steely thing. You guess what she said?? She said 'Oh, we are not going to take out now cause it needs to put for 3 MONTHS.' HOLLY SHIT!!!!!!!!3 MONTHS????ARE YOU CRAZY???I can't stand for 2 WEEKS already and now you tell me you gonna put for another 2 months ++ more??????????WHY AM I SO STUPID GO PAY TO GET TORTURE????!!!!ARGHHH!!!! After putting braces on top of my teeth, she said 'cause your upper part teeth not match with lower part teeth, so you need to exercise ur teeth everyday.I will teach you now.' Then she bla bla bla and continue said 'Do AT LEAST 900 times a day' That time I was get shocked and my eyes 'open' till big big and staring her.WHAT THE...............???oh my........I need to do until when????3 months??????NO WAY!!!! :s...........NO CHOICE~~~~PAID AND DO LIAO~~~WHAT TO DO???TELL ME WHAT TO DO??? A way to go~~~JUST CONTINUE~~~I chose white color by the way. Cause want to see how yellow will be my teeth is. Below is the pic I took ....Don't scroll down if you don't want to see my yellowish and horrible teeth.Don't enlarge the photo too.It's already clear. If enlarged and makes you feel like vomiting, not my business. HEHE~~~I have warned you guys SO see its at your own risk~~~






2nd time appointment: Put new seperators (made of rubber) on top and 2 rings on bottom which put until now and doing nothing.Don't know what's that for. Like a hungry shark...>.<



3rd time appointment: Which gonna put in my mouth for another 2 months++ more...=S . I purposely snapped the photo in no flash light cause don't wanna frighten you guys..^_^




This is the key to lock the steely thing.My mum said the doctor know I like to scold people already thats why ask me to lock my mouth.. =,=




After 2 weeks of locking effect. Have a gap between my 2 front teeth ..So ugly~~~




Today's appointment. Which causing my front teeth pain like hell~~~ =S .

Now I am having double suffering. My teeth is going to drop and need that steely thing to support~~~LOL~~~My mouth quite big~~lol

*Part II will be continued aftr the next few appointment, means after few months. So have a break ,have a kit kat. Few months later I am going to post my teeth's picture again. ^^*

12 of April

This day,I fully enjoyed my Saturday .Long time never have such a fun .We were having nice 'pushing into pool' event, water sports behind Rasa Sayang and the subsequent barbecue. My coursemate organised apartmenet stay at Sri Sayang.Unfortunately I can't stay overnight due to disallowance by my mum. Luckily hc not staying too,if not nobody fetch me back.HEHE~~~My good driver.Hiak Hiak Hiak~~~Saturday morning went to Pekaka took economy rice with dad. I took 3 different types of vege but didn't take the spinach cause once I put into my mouth, it get stucked on top of my mouth.What the....~~~Later on went to Marina Bay waiting my GOOD DRIVER (HC >.<....shhhhh...) fetch me to Batu Feringgi. Last Friday she told me to come down when she missed call me.Therefore Saturday when my phone rang and I saw her name I just ignore lo...let it ring ring ring...But something wrong leh...why her missed call so long wan.I picked up and she said ' lean,don't take ur bag down 1st,I am now at MB you faster come down my car's heater rise until maximum and bla bla bla...' That time I was kinda blur cause I don't know what she talking about.LOL..I feel kinda funny...Wahahahhaha...allowed me laugh at here one more time...Wahahahahahhahah..^.^..After that my dad settled for her. In the end ,my another driver pick us up.MS TANTAN~~~wehee...We parked at Sri Sayang's car park and 3 CHINA PO WALK to opposite and WALK further down (2 hotels which took lots of land spaces) UNDER THE HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT BURNING SUN to take our lunch.Luckily the shop was opened,if not I am sure fainted. After lunch 3 CHINA PO WALKED again under SUPER DUPLE TRIPLE QUADRUPLE HOT BURNING SUN AGAIN~~~However,during way back to SS felt like quite near wor..LOL~~~Later on we reached the room and I can feel the COOL AIR inside the room. While waiting the rest to come, we played blackjack and I won 50 cents ^.^....Around 4 something or 5 we went to pool.I success to push aman into pool.VICTORY Every time after I pushed Aman into pool, I am the next who dropped into pool which should thanks to Diva. I am wondering Aman's head made by steel or what? My tummy knocked his head and my tummy now is ' black green '.PAIN~~~Leg as well......The lesson of this is the behind of victory is need to 'PAY' =,=..NO PAIN NO GAIN~~~



After 'pushing' event, we went to play watersport~~WEHEE...Before that I promised my mum not to go near the sea but I broke my promise.Lol...If I didn't promise her, I can't go there even a day.We went to play jet ski. Damn FUN!!!Too bad,can't take photo so just keep in mind as memory. After all of us bathed, they took all the stuffs to the beach and left 3 china po (me,hc and ms tantan) in the apartment. Our SHOWTIME~~~hehe~~~We went down after them because 3 of us were going to show our TALENT OF COOKING~~~hehe..

'Throwing' the popcorn chicken instead of 'putting'.LOL~~~

Advertising the Popcorn Chicken fried by her~~~Great job~~

3 china po's masterpiece~~LOL

After cooking, 3 china po is time to go back already.So we sent the fries and chicken popcorn to the beach, ate something and took some photos and SAYONARA~~~~But been forced to take some foods back which I am sure I won't eat after back to MB. So the ending of the foods is how??up to READERsss to think ~~~

new friends:yeap and nando




Ms TanTan you are so TALL lo~~~Happy bo?

Leisure

'Leisure' this term is to makes my entry's title looks more n sounds more GENTLE. But if really wanna suit this entry,the topic should write 'Eat too full,nothing to do during in college'.However, doesn't meant to me,but should APPRECIATE to MS TANTAN( 炖蛋 ) .The following pictures is MS TANTAN's masterpiece.ENJOY~~~These pictures is how I looks like when I am in college.

I was concentrating on my game, but she keeps on distracting me . Makes me having loss in my game nia.

Always ask me to turn and face her to let her snap . But her skill really TERRIBLE. Took my picture until SO EXTREMELY unskillful.

This is how I looks like when the class is boring. BUT I WAS STILL AWAKE. JUST LAID DOWN... EH, MS TANTAN..your dad pays you to college is to study ok?...not as photographer during class.SO BIG ALREADY STILL DON'T KNOW TO THINK.LOL~~~

Volcano Erupts and Silence

In this entry,may contain vulgar language.So quit now if this makes you feel you don't want read vulgar's entry.

When pressure from the molten rock beneath the earth's surface becomes too great, the rock, usually accompanied by lava or gases, escapes through a fissure or vent in the crust of the earth. I can say that my temper is like volcano.I'll tolerate with those that action is too much.But don't try to challenge my patience. Once I can't stand it anymore, my 'lava' will erupts violently to all related people SOMETIMES to non- related as well. Just like lahars, flow to everywhere. :p Just like this picture>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Is just like today, during piano lesson, my sir keep on complaining how bad I play the exam piece and compare my skill with the professional pianist. That was not the first time, was every month , every week.What the.....I admit my skill was and is not good but how could you compare me with the professional pianist? Do you expect a student that is learning could play that great?skillful? So I grumble in a surly manner for a moment . I know I shouldn't although it was damn rude but I just can't control my temper plus these few days my mood effected by a damn bloody moron idiot foolish dumb rude person. That's why as what I have mentioned above, if my 'volcano' is up to a certain limit I am 100% sure will erupts.

Silence means don't mind or don't care ?It is means that you can do whatever you want or whatever you feel happy?It is means you can talk whatever you like without caring others feeling? If the one that you criticizing and complaining is elderly and they just keep quiet do you think you are still right? You all called this as straightforward personality? Or the other way of communication? Makes the conversation more fun and interesting? For me, is lack of family education and a brainless person. Don't always thought know a little bit of knowledge and you can talk cork louder than others.Sometimes your words are worthless.So please, if your strength is small, don't carry heavy burdens. If your words are worthless, don't give advice. Sometimes when you listen a person talking too much cork you will have on impulse to ask that person shut up or even slap that person. To me, don't talk too much cork things that you thought you know well than others . Because if one day I can't stand it anymore, I will either shoot back you or vent all the anger that I tolerate from before until today. Don't do something that are overlimit. Everyone has a limitation. It's the best knowing when to stop to talk cork and stupidity.

This entry meant to nobody. So and another please, don't ' Taking a seat according to ticket number ' '对号入座'

Happy April Fool's Day

Happy April Fool's Day everyone.My sis's laptop fooled me today.Make me panic like hell.When I switch on the laptop,the dekstop's background change to default.And I knew something was wrong,I went to C drive and check and as what I expected all pictures are gone which haven't backup.I was totally going to faint.My sis is going to send me to hell.I have no idea why the hell the laptop auto format.I told shu,and she thought I was fooling her.=,='''''deng~~~~~~~~That time totally don't have mood to fool people.Lol...I am sorry shu,cause say those bad words during the conversation.=p.those words doesn't meant to you.Hehe. I know you won't blaime me cause you love me.HAHA~~Finally I found it!!!All the pictures and files are still there.Oh my Guan Yim Ma,really HAPPY.Until now I still don't know why all back to default.BUT~~~~my sis's 'Favourites' there all gone.When she back she bla bla bla.....says,what had you done to my laptop?I said ' I don't know,when I switch on it already become that.you should ask dad =,=''''.What an advanced computer and laptop~~~My computer can auto restart and my sis's laptop can auto reformat.MARVELOUS dekstop and laptop I ever had!!!!!!!!!!=,=''''''''